Friendship PTSD
I have been around for over 30 years and I've gone through separation from my family, deaths, illnesses and disappointments: all the usual ebbs and flows of life. I have had my fair share of failed relationships but one thing that stands out is my failed friendships. People I spent days on end talking to and bonding with are now nothing more than a memory. Some even act as if I don’t exist. I have tried reaching out but nothing has really panned out.
For the last five years I have been spending a significant amount of time by myself and I can safely say that I feel at peace. It is amazing and scary. It’s amazing because I’m quite attuned to myself and who I am but on the other hand I don't even want to make the effort to pursue new friendships. I am not eager anymore. Sometimes I think that maybe I am even too judgmental. Outside of the content I post here, I don't even wish to share my feelings anymore. I am more careful and don't give anything out besides my name and nationality. I am tight lipped about even the smallest details.
Does this sound like a nightmare? It isnt to me. I imagine that to an extrovert this would be an absolute mess. I have begun to study even further about my personality type and it turns out that I am a true introvert. The personality scale is quite interesting. There are all these various combinations and you can learn more about your personality type by taking…
